lost18, I wish I could help more but since I caused my own heartache I don't feel I have the right to say much. Stay positive. I rethink so much of the communications with my W just like you. Is it helpful IDK. I do feel my heart skip a beat when a text, call, or email pops up. Not that everything is positive since several communications have been about insurance, divorce pwk, etc., but it still doesn't stop the feeling. Thank you for sharing so I know I'm not the only one.
W-37 Me-37 M-16yrs & 5days W "Done" Day = Valentine Day 2014 D-8/13/2014 S16 S13 S11 D8