To my team: I'm feeling very good today!! I feel a sense of weight off my shoulders and some pride. Not sure of how to describe it actually. I was really really scared to let him know how I felt and that I am at the end of my rope...the last chance bus has arrived.... are you getting on? I was afraid that he could turn that into "ahhh, she is still there...waiting".... but, I see & have said that this is a short opportunity.. & will stick to my guns. I just really hope he views this as "asking" and that an answer is required.
Is it fair to say that I have control of myself and/or situation here? That somehow now, the ball is in my court. That I have the position of "this is my standard"... do you accept or not.. cuz, if you don't... I'm ok & moving on?
Does it sound like that? Sure feels like it.
Thank you Job for pointing out that I have tools to end the convo early or switch topics should it be circular or not even entertain it at all... knowing that I should do this to save myself feels better.
Yep... all talk no action!
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
