Seriously, I just do not know how to get out of my own way. Feeling so heartbroken today. The kids are back with H tonite. I hate this. I do have plans to get out and GAL and while it helps some I still will have to face that big empty house alone tonite. S had a doc appt this am and H txted and asked me to let him know how it goes. I called him and told him about it and while he was pleasant it's obviously all business/kids again. I just don't feel strong enough to do this. I feel like I am losing my mind.
M: 42 H: 43 M: 8 years S7 and D4 H has D19 and S25 from previous M Bomb: 3/6/14 OW discovered, EA & PA 1st separation, 10 days, decided to reconcile & moved back in. Fail 2nd separation: 5/1/14
