Currently I'm reading Codependent No More. Really good book and offers some insight into the way I think and being in a R with an alchoholic.
I've already read Divorce Remedy, and Lough Must Be Tough. I would like to read No More Mr. Nice Guy.
So... I know I'm going to get smashed with 2x4's but I'm going to be honest. Lately Ive been better about not checking WAW's FB. She lives on FB and I wanted to get a sense of where she is at.
There hasn't been a whole lot of activity but she did post a video of her and her daughter dancing in their living room.
It made me feel like she is over me already. Like she is enjoying her new life without Thornton. I thought she was supposed to be depressed and battling her addiction and her breakup from me. But she was happy.
Don't get me wrong, I want her to be happy. It's just that I've struggled so much with this breakup that I can't fathom posting a video on FB of my daughter and myself dancing on FB.
Did I really mean that little to WAW, that she can be moving on so quickly? Its been 2 weeks for crying out loud.
The last time we took a week long break, she had to go on anti-anxiety meds. This is such a shock for me to see her handling this so well.
I'm feeling really discouraged, like maybe I can save myself a lot of heartbreak if I just cut the cord and never look back. But I love her, I want to build a new life with her. She's worth it to me. I'm also afraid of being naive. She still has me as her boyfriend on FB, so it really confuses me. It makes me think she doesnt want to delete me because of all the fall out she'd get from people asking what happened. The weeks leading up to the breakup were all family pictures of her and I with the kids having a blast.
I'm putting all this energy and effort into myself to be a better man, while she uses this time to move on from the relationship.
It is possible that she no longer has even a sliver of love for me left in her heart?
