Marching forward with deal breakers in hand

[Maybell]

This is a terrible place to be.

With regards to the dreams, I don't know if you're able to do this, but one thing that has helped me is when I'm having those awful dreams, I'm often mostly asleep but just aware enough to know that I'm dreaming, so I go all out in them. All the yelling, screaming, throwing and breaking I want to do that I work so hard to restrain when I'm awake, I do it in my dreams. Then I usually fall back to sleep and wake up feeling a LOT better in the mornings because it has been expressed.

I don't know if that helps everyone, but it has helped me a lot. There was one really great one where I just b*&^% slapped the h#$% out of OW and now I feel like she's totally in perspective for me. Still a deal-breaker, but more a symptom of how he dysfunctions than such a personal insult to me.

Like you, I find the more I share with others the more I learn how many people struggle. You have little ones so I know this will resonate for you -- Everybody Poops. It's nice to know we're not alone.

Hang in there and KNOW that this too shall pass, no matter what the outcome might be.