Thx for the reminder Barrybarn. I do know I need to get back on me and the blame is counterproductive. Unfortunately nighttime is the worst for me. I often wake up confused, wondering where H and/or my kids are (if they are with him). I have lots of anxiety and pain in my chest. I have bad dreams about H starting a new life with OW. It just [censored]. I do so much to GAL, fortunately I have a good career and many friends, and while it helps some H is never far from my mind. I know I should not get in touch with him today and wait for him to reach out to me but it feels like a feat of epic proportions. Now that he is warming some it's even harder.
M: 42 H: 43 M: 8 years S7 and D4 H has D19 and S25 from previous M Bomb: 3/6/14 OW discovered, EA & PA 1st separation, 10 days, decided to reconcile & moved back in. Fail 2nd separation: 5/1/14
