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[Barrybran]

Journaling:

I had one of my more awkward experiences throughout this situation today. My wife was ill last night and it carried through to this morning. She said she needed more sleep and I told her I would organise the kids if she wanted to go back to bed. She took me up on the offer and asked that I call the doctor for her, which I did when I could.

Later in the day she comes into the room I'm in to show me text messages from a colleague stating her company were closing three stores in our region and 50 nationwide. I asked how my wife felt about it and she told me she was worried. I reminded her what she'd witnessed at two stores she had been to recently and that her store was in better condition physically and financially. I asked her how sales were and she said her store was doing well. She wasn't able to talk so I asked if she was able to email her boss so she left to go to work.

A while later she texts with the details from the doctor. The doctor was concerned and I asked my wife how she felt about what the doctor had said, to which she said she was freaked out. When she got home I followed her into the kitchen to ask her more about the doctor and put my hand on her back, the first time I'd touched her without invitation/permission since we stopped ML. She didn't flinch and I cut the contact short. I wanted to hug her and didn't really know how to handle the situation so I kept close but a safe distance and asked her about what the doctor said and tried to comfort her as best I could. I went about with what I was doing around the house and when I came back in she tried to force a smile for me, one of those 'put on a brave face' smiles.

I went back to my room and left my wife to herself. I left for work an hour later without seeing her and sent her a text on the way out to say that I was leaving and that I was only a text message away if she needed me. She didn't respond and I didn't expect one.

Unfortunately she can't go to work for the rest of the week and she is supposed to rest. She's going to be bored stupid. I'm tempted to take her to the park for morning tea/lunch tomorrow. Of course, she'll have the right to refuse in which case I'll do my own thing.