Hi daring. Sorry to hear you are having some tough times. Just remember, they won't last forever.
Do what you have to do for you... don't worry about how H will see it. Right now it is WAY more important that you save YOU!
H is spinning. He really doesn't know what he wants, and likely won't for a while. The more you focus on you, the better. You WANT him to see you doing well. This makes you MORE attractive.
I know how tough this stuff can be, but you can do this. You are doing it! Bust On!
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl