I just read your sitch. I'm so sorry you find yourself here as I know you are in a difficult spot.
Yes, it certainly can be exhausting having your kids all the time. Find things to give you a boost. Go for a walk by yourself or with your kids. . Dance around the house. Sing in the shower. Sing in the car. Laugh. Read. Do something. It's a start.
In regards to being friends with your h, what's the hurry to assign a label? You need to focus on yourself and regain your independence. Don't be rude or cold, but if you want a friendly r with your h, there is plenty of time to establish that.
In regards to filing, what's the rush? Why are you worried about speeding it up for your h so he can heal? If you want to file, that's fine. However, focus on you. You can't heal your h-only he can do that. Your job is to focus on you and what you want. In regards to your mom not being happy with your decision, you can't control how she feels. If you feel sending D to Japan or Challenge Academy is the best move, then you can't worry about your mother's approval.
It's time to dig deep. I may sound harsh but I sense desperation in your posts. It's time to look at yourself and work on things that make you stronger and better.
Hang in there!
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer
