BD and 6 mts later PA confirmed

[Bunches]

Barry, W has seen a lawyer but she cannot do much because she is broke. My W wasn't working for the last 1.5 years before BD. She walked out at BD with nothing. She has a job with great legal insurance now and only costs $500 to file but she still can't afford it.

So I had a terrible blowout with W on Friday. Picked up my S to head out of town and we chatted for a minute about the summer plans. Somehow we keep getting wires crossed about plans and when I mentioned her picking him up Monday and then me getting him back the following Monday she blew up. She wanted him for 3 - 4 weeks solid with me visiting him instead. I don't want that because I want to see my S but believe we need to not be seeing each other every day or even every other. I let her draw me into an arguement instead of walking away and ended up saying things about trust that didn't need to come out. She lost it and walked out, sent me a nasty text saying I called her an unfit mother, called me back 5 minutes later to apologize, then started to tell me how I wasn't involved with my S his whole life, we argued some more, she cried and then hung up on me. We haven't spoken in 3 days but she did text me the next day to say she hoped we were having a wonderful weekend. Anyhow, we did have a great weekend at a lake. Had family along and a ton of fun for 3 days. Now W will be picking him up shortly and we have to talk again about the schedule. We will see how that goes. Going to read the 37 rules again before hand.

On another note, I'm finally reaching that point where I care but could go either way and am feeling pretty good about my future. W has really pushed me to the point where I'm letting things move along and think the best thing for now is going to be us being away from each other. W's A ended nearly a month ago but she seems just as determined as ever to D. She makes me nuts and I think it will do me a lot of good to be away from her as much as possible for the coming months.

Barry, what you said about asking for more specifics from last year seems to be out of reach for the moment. I think any R talk will have to stay out of touch for now until either things settle some more or until she feel different. I think there has been too much arguing recently and things need to settle and heal some.