Hi TL.
Feeling very low today and I always feel better when I read your posts. W told me today that she has once again changed her mind and is going to file. See her father offered to pay for the lawyer and the whole process but she must file right away. Just a couple weeks ago she was in no hurry, now she is. Of course when I say I would need my own lawyer since she got advice from him and he is being paid by HER father but she said I can trust her to be fair. Up until her dad got involved she was content to just separate but now that is out the window. I'm really trying not to hate her right now and I would like to know how you haven't started hating your exH? How can you stand the way he blames all his problems on you? How he just has forgotten all the years? She tells me she doesn't want to hurt me but that is all she ever does!

Tell me how to hold back this flood of hatred and malice I'm feeling, please.