Holidays are hard. My d spent the day with her brother and so I was home alone and of course it was storming so I had nothing better to do than sit here and think. That is so not good.
Or maybe it is. I don't know. I've thought a lot about my marriage and my faults in it. I know they weren't that bad but I imagine they can get old after a while. Unfortunately I know they could be corrected, and I've been doing a lot of work on that. Not being able to do that with h is sad. And that he didn't think he had any issues and that he was just fine is also sad. To throw away a marriage without a real effort before doing so seems unfair. But I guess life is unfair and you just have to get on with it. D15 hasn't heard from him since Thursday. That's being a stand up father. Older kids haven't seen him in 2 months and only heard from him once since then. I understand that he wanted away from me but I don't understand him also wanting to be away from the kids. I guess for some people family just isn't that important. Spending the holidays without him is hard. We usually have a big bbq and all the family here. This year it's just me and d15 and I have to work part of the day. I know h is off and he didn't want to spend it with d15. His loss. How sad for him.
