I counted every "I" so really its quite a bit less than that. I remember quite a few times you had said," I said I blah blah blah." My point being, you're suffering and focus way too much time giving this girl "she" and "her" comments. I tried reading your story and I'll be honest I need to reread it. If she found OM, use Thought-Stopping and just do you brother. She needs to miss you and also think you forgot about her. You got no kids - just like me, we can forgot our wives together. Go hit the gym, get a bicycle. Focus your energy on YOU. No more "she" and "her".
"Don't chase people. Be yourself, do your own thing, and work hard. The right people - the ones who really belong in your life - will come to you. And stay." ~ Will Smith
