Mustard seed, I can so relate. The work thing is tough, no so long ago I was applying for jobs 6 per week. Most never getting to interview or getting a rejection letter.
It can be hard, but remember its a numbers game, the more numbers you put out the more likely your going to crack the good job.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26