Roller coaster and then some

[TL72*]

Daring - letting go is the best thing to do, it's just a piece of paper. Definitely don't let it ruin your hope, things change all the time, nothing stays the same, not even our troubles.
When mine filed I did not contest it, I simply told him the changes to be made and he agreed and when he gave me the updated papers I had my lawyer read it and I signed it right then when she said they were good. He wasn't going to be happy if I decided not to sign, it accomplished nothing, I felt like just get it over with, let him go and get through his journey, fighting him on it would have been a waste of energy - mine were more than fair though so I was lucky. He will still be in your life since you have children. I don't have any kids but he still is checking on the dogs once in awhile and that's when he can see my changes. They DO notice. It takes awhile, but definitely don't lose hope. google divorce support groups for your area and go to one - it helped me tremendously.