WAW...Again, Part II

[stumps]

Try to remember that the M didn't get to the point it did overnight and it isn't going to change back that way, either.

Really appreciate your advice, and encouragement. I really am trying to bear in mind that this is "a marathon, not a race".

I think one of the things that makes it so diificult for me is, sort of ironically, how well we get along...how much we enjoy spending time together.

Even in the midst of her being sick this past week, W remarked that she hated having to rest/sleep so much because it kept her from being able to hang out with me. Or like last night, we had her parents and a bunch of the neighbors over again to play cornhole and then sit by the firepit after it got dark, and like she's been doing lately she remarked a couple of times how great it was and how much fun she was having...although as she has also often been doing during these good times, she mentioned at one point that she had those creeping feelings of anger regarding the fact that "we could have had this for the past 10 years" and that "this" (meaning her wanting a divorce) "is what it took for her to finally get what she wanted."

Regarding her anger, W did say when we got up this morning that 1) she had a really great time last night and 2) that she really like that she could tell me about her feelings of anger without me getting offended or it turning into "something bigger"...that she could simply express herself and have that be the end of it. I told her it was because I completely understood her feelings and where she was coming from. She then mentioned that it wasn't even so much anger as it was regret. I was going to ask for clarification on what she meant by regret, since to me that word plays into the notion that she still feels like we're done, but I (wisely, I think) decided to just let that dog keep sleeping.

As it is, she's lying here on the couch next to me doing her nails as I type this out on my phone, when she could just as easily be ensconced in her room or bathroom, so... I take whatever positive signs I can get.

Sure would like to see that wedding ring show back up on her finger before she leaves for work tonight though... (Halfway joking about that... Halfway).