I am working very hard on detaching and nc is helping me with that. I am working on myself and finding myself. H is not my problem anymore, he has his own stuff to figure out and find where that leads him. I'm not waiting. I will keep the door open as long as I can, but I'm going to get on with my life, my healing, my joy. I know it will be a hard road for a while but I have a lot to look forward to and I don't want to waste it boo hooing over him. I need to find a new job and when I do that will be exciting and fun. I have our sons wedding coming up and our granddaughter who is 3 just starting gymnastics. I want to take up boxing and get back to riding again. I will miss sharing all this with my h but it's his choice to be apart and not try to reconnect. I will be filing for support at the least next week. I haven't decided if I will proceed with the divorce, but it just seems like I might as well. At least I can put it to bed and not have it hanging over my head all the time. That's where I'm at today.
