The day after our movie date, I was feeling down for a bit. W hadn't reached out to touch me, hadn't joined me in our bed, and still closed up the bathroom curtain tight when showering/changing. Things were not turning for the better like I had hoped, I told myself, and maybe never would.
Then I stopped and had a discussion between my reptilian brain, (the old brain, responsible for survival, and the fight or flight response) and my new brain. (the advanced part that is responsible for deep, rational, human thought)
Old brain: Damn, she's still not into you. Might as well pack it up and call it a day.
New brain: Wait a minute. Look at how far you've come. Think back to how things were between the two of you two years ago... One year ago! Your expectations are too high. Focus on the big picture, the end goal, you will get there!
So I refocused on all the positives in my sitch, and readjusted my expectations.
I had a good week at work, and a good workout night with some friends. W met up with her friends a couple nights this week, and as usual, gave me details upon her return.
"GF wasn't there tonight, but T, B, and so and so were." she told me.
Me: "Oh, so it was just you and your boyfriends."
W: "Hahaha, yeah I guess so. I never really thought of it that way."
She then proceeded to fill me in on the details of her night. My W continues to come out of the social anxiety shell she was in prior to crises. I am so happy for her!
W got home from work a bit early tonight, and we talked about our day for a while. She was checking emails and said GF is now back in town, and asked if I would mind if she met up with her tonight.
I've really been admiring W's long, painted nails so I replied "Not if you scratch my back before you leave!" (something W has not done since pre-BD)
W agreed, and went to the bathroom to powder up a bit. I removed my shirt, and laid on our master bed. W came out and joined me. The two of us on the master bed together is also a post BD first! Yay!
Gosh I love my girl! Bust On, you all!
Last edited by ForeverYoung; 05/24/1403:24 AM.
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl
