Let It Go

[BklynMom]

Girls & ex left this evening and boy and I ready for a break from my kids. H switched with me last weekend so I have had the kids for 3 weeks straight with no break.

It is really hard being a single mom. Luckily my parents or sister come over 2x a week to help with bedtime.

Spent about 10 mins with ex during the exchange and I feel terrible after I see him. I feel my self esteem go down. I am going to ponder these dynamics this weekend cause I must be part of the reason I feel this way.

I also know my ex is very passive aggressive and I think I play into his script rather then call him out and once he is gone I feel bad they I have said nothing.

Like he said twice while he was here that they were not leaving directly from our place for their trip, they had to return to his apartment so he could finish dinner.

That sounded like such BS to me. I think he needed to go back to his place to pick up OW.

I would like him to be honest in front of our kids and honest to me (LOL not like he has ever been honest with me).

That was biggest issue. But he is constantly manipulating everything in his small/subtle passive aggressive ways and I hate being around him.

I have a busy & fun weekend planned and I really need a break from the kiddos!