Crazy how I can go from doing so well to so crappy. Haven't had much going on so it allows my mind to wander...too much. Proof that GAL really does work.

I have a busy weekend coming up and today is the last day of school so I'm sure D12 with try to keep me busy. Time to refocus on my goals and stop getting distracted with things and thoughts that are out of my control.

Sometimes I just want to tell H to F off and grow up and stop being a selfish A-hole!! You don't just stop communicating with your wife of 17+ years who you have children with. I know that won't help me reach my goal so I just vent here and to my sister.

Sometimes I think I should just give up and move on....but then I think that isn't what I want, and realistically I would be doing the same thing I'm doing now anyway so why give up on something I'm not ready to give up on?


Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since