So I tend to have epiphanies in the morning and today I woke up and realized how much I need to detach from H (you all already knew this..I know, I'm slow). My moods are unfortunately still SO dependent on him. Ugh! I am really worried about this weekend as it's a long weekend, I have the kids and I keep wondering if he'll be using it as an opportunity to visit OW (she lives 2 hours away). I'm also wondering whether he's going to reach out and request an R discussion as we had discussed previously or just drop it. I'm sure I'll be obsessing a bit about that as well and start getting depressed if he does NOT. I'm sure that will further feed into worry about him visiting OW. I know I need to let go and just try to focus on myself/my kids.
Currently the kids and I have very few plans this weekend. I really need to get on top of that! I'm going to work on getting that organized today and post again in a little while with my list of weekend activities/distractions. I'm sure I'll be posting a lot over the weekend to hopefully help keep me on track!
M: 42 H: 43 M: 8 years S7 and D4 H has D19 and S25 from previous M Bomb: 3/6/14 OW discovered, EA & PA 1st separation, 10 days, decided to reconcile & moved back in. Fail 2nd separation: 5/1/14
