Woke up at 4 am disturbed, unsure why I can't sleep. After an hour realized I'm so angry and disgusted by him I want to choke.
I want to reunite my family, but is it normal to be unsure if the WH is worth the investment?
I have an appointment with an attorney in two weeks. I'm thinking about how to prep, not sure what my options are or what I should do to protect myself but in such a way that I don't destroy my chances of rebuilding with him.
He asked me not to spend too much on the lawyer, but he is trying to rent a swanky 2BR downtown, furnish it for himself with no provision for kids. (But at the moment wants them almost 50/50, except for me to "babysit" while he's at work).
I'm going to do what I think is right about the lawyer.
I do care about OW, she's a deal-breaker. But I'm not going to break my heart over her.
Am I normal? To want to put our family back together, to want our old age together, and also to want to see him choke on his own cruel and selfish choices? How does a person overcome this anger and stand for the marriage?
I am SO not looking forward to this weekend.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
