That's a good question and one I don't have an exact answer for. I'm sure it's lots of things.
I just want space and time to clear my head. Not make any decisions...just live.
The issue with that - is that she sees that as a decision.
Good news is that I'm going home in a week to Pennsylvania. My parents live in the country with no internet of cellphone service. So for 10 days I can take the space that I need and the time that I want.. without the pressure and guilt that comes with her feeling like I am pulling away.
I've always believed that I should make a decision when the head and heart matches. I think I am getting there - but not quite yet.
Maybe I will journal some more on here... bear my soul a little bit.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
