Thanks for the response. I feel much better in the last week to two weeks.
I am actually thinking about divorce. H is getting worse, and the kids are starting to notice something is up with H. H has not done the severe neglect of kids that I have read, but he is withdrawing some. He won't stop texting and the kids notice, espicially when we are at school function for kids and he misses the big event bc of texting OW. Now when we go biking for an example and he stop to text -- the kids just go dad is texting again and keep going and leave him behind (they are still too young to be biking without supervision.)
I can't do anything until I know about my job or other job and I have someone reliable to take care of kids while I work. H claims he is divorcing me when his situation is done. I am 99.9% sure that will happen if I wait.
I am sure that I am wrong, but I don't feel in love with him at this point. I know it is just a feeling and can be rebuilt. Maybe I am not good at this standing thing - who knows? In truth, I could stand for a million years, but the fact that my kids are having a negative impact now, completely changes te game.
I hope that H cleans up his act, as I know the kids really love him. H dad was asking me what is up with his son. I really did not get into it, other than I have no idea really. His dad said he seems to be slipping mentally. This is big, bc his dad never admits fault with himself or family (same with H - that is why MLC is bad bc H already had a huge ego.)
Hope that you are doing well. Prayers to you and everyone going through this nonsense.
