He said tonight that my working so hard to turn things around makes him feel worse about what he's done to me. He can see the changes I've made. Still doesn't know if we'll stay married.
Of course not. And my mistake for trying to even find out. Stupid me. But we're telling the kids about separating this weekend. And I've been reading a book about how this is going to hit them and I feel sick.
He told MC last week that he feels more at peace away from me. Of course; he feels guilty AND he was communicating with OW. Of course he doesn't want to face me now. So easily solved from my perspective. Reminder to me: OW is an absolute deal-breaker and best case scenario it will take a long time to assure she's gone. Which I assume she isn't yet. Grrrrr.
At least my state has a one-year waiting period for a full divorce. I need more patience. I wish I were built differently.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
