Wife doesn't feel it... (Part 2)

[Corbean]

25,

I try to keep everything in my posts as completely true as possible. If I say something that contradicts something previously it is because I learned something new. I'm not going out of my way to learn stuff, but her dad and sister don't like what she's doing so they call me and tell me everything even if I don't ask.

Her sister confirmed to me today that she is actually living with the other guy now and the children are staying there as well.

Also, my wife told me that she let's him be around the kids because "it's just like being around a friend."

I was extremely codependent and that's o email of the issues I'm addressing in counseling.

I do try to stop thinking about her, I have completely surrendered this whole thing with her to God, but I can't help the thoughts that pop up in my mind. I try to stop them, but when I can't I let them out here.

I am working hard on myself as outlined earlier, as for 180s it's kind of hard with her 5 hrs away so I'm just being happy and upbeat when we exchange the kids and I used to be very nosy I guess always asking her what she was doing etc. And I haven't done that at all for a while. I'm trying to respond friendly to her and everything.

As for GAL I am struggling. I go to the gym every morning before work, run 4 days a week after work. I meet up with my mentor twice a week. But I'm struggling to find a hobby because I don't have much money right now. I used to go to the bar and stuff when I was younger but I don't want to do that so I'm struggling to make friends other than my work buddies. Any advice would be appreciated.

Also, she just called with my son and at the end of the convo asked me to bring her the baby gate and my son's summer clothes. I felt bad because I can't tell her that I filed for Temp custody yet. Was an awkward moment.