3 Months In and Feeling...More Aware

[JennD]

She is somewhat aware. She knows I am sad lately because I miss Daddy. She knows we are having "troubles" and that we are trying to work them out.

She has become very loving (she always was very cuddly) since all this has gone on. We leave each other little notes. I often put them in her lunch bag or spelling book so she finds them when she gets to school (saying things like "have a super-duper day" or a heart with her name inside) and she leaves notes for me on my night stand (things like 'you are the bestest mom ever!")

I have made sure I spend time with both girls, seperately. Reading or giggling or just sitting together. This new situation (ie after BD) has really made me stop, put down my iphone, turn off the computer and fully live in the moment with the girls. (don;t get me wrong - I do get side tracked but I quickly try to remember whats important and switch off work, etc)

Although I wish I didn't have to be in the situation (like all of us) I am please with how my relationship with the girls has become stronger. (Insert PMA and self-pat on the back). I am thankful of my new awareness.