Today - I am exhausted. I got home at 2AM, took a shower, had to be up at 5AM. I am a zombie.
Got home yesterday and H was in a good mood. He and I played together with the kiddo, and then I had to leave. Sent him one text when I got to work to tell him the schedule was updated and I'd be back even later, so not to lock the "top" of the door (it's not working on the outside) so I could get back in.
He said ok, and I went on about my day. This morning, the kiddo waking up woke me up a few minutes before my alarm went off. I got up and went to see her. Fussed over her for a minute, then asked if he would watch her while I got dressed, and then I'd take her. He did, and after I got dressed and got her ready/was feeding her, he chatted me up about my night last night. He asked a bunch of questions, I answered and we chatted a little bit before I took her to the neighbor. I got back, and he asked if I was still going out of town this weekend. I said yes, and he volunteered where he was going and who he was hanging out with. I don't believe him, as he likes to fib as I think his other friends are wastes of human air, but whatever. I acted as if I didn't care.
Told him I hoped he had a good day when I got back and then left. Was driving along to work when he called. Asked me if I saw his text message. I didn't, and looked really quickly. It was a funny reply of a screen shot of his text that he sent to his coworker that is the biggest male drama queen I've ever seen. Anyhow, he starts a conversation with me over it. I was about to exit, so told him I needed to leave, but reminded him he needed to pick up the kiddo today as I had plans after work (anger management counseling.) He affirmed he would, and I continued on to work.
I had forgot to tell him that I couldn't watch his dog this weekend, so told him as much. He said he would take her, but asked what I was doing with mine. I said she was coming with me, because we'd be on a lake and she'd probably love being able to swim.
I had sent him something about a dedication for our daughter at the church we've been to a couple of times. They are having a "group" dedication on fathers day. He also replied that he'd like to go to that.
Other than that, continuing to DB. I have no idea when he's leaving for the weekend, or his plans. I don't plan on asking him. I don't plan on texting him anything or calling him at all when I am out of town. If he wants to talk, he can initiate.
He did not get anything done on the D yesterday as he said he would. I didn't ask about it, he didn't offer anything. He was just telling me in his chat that he wasn't at the office and was on the road all day.
Either way, I'm slowly starting to look forward to what I'm doing day to day. I know it hasn't been long, and this is a roller coaster, but yesterday and today have been 'fun' for me.
Goals:
keep opening up myself to provide a "safe path" for him to reconnect with me. He has not mentioned moving out again. I guess I will know for sure on June 6th.
DO NOT TALK ABOUT D, HIS MOVING OUT, ANY R TALK. I have slipped some, but yesterday did not slip at all.
no zero days. Friday night might be a zero night, but not a zero day.
Continue to DB and let him be on his own as far as paying bills and not "rescuing" him by constantly reminding him he had to pay them. I told him twice. Once in an e-mail, listing logins, account numbers, due dates and amounts; and once last week when I got an e-mail that they were two weeks behind. In a few days, they will start reporting 30 days late to the credit bureaus. I did a lot of legwork cleaning up his credit since the day we were married. It [censored] to see all that hard work go down the drain, but this is a huge 180 for me. He got a letter in the mail last week as well saying they were past due. He makes more than enough to pay them - he just has not made it a priority.
continue to GAL. This week - anger management and DB coach today. Tomorrow - divorce care and yoga. Friday - relax, clean house. Last quote for flagstone patio coming to look at what I want to do. Saturday AM - move last load of flagstone for patio. Saturday PM - head out of town with kidlet. Sunday - drive with kidlet to see friends at lake house. Monday - return home.
Learn and try a new recipe by month end.
I haven't run in two weeks. Get back into running with kiddo or alone on weekends and Mondays.
Last edited by LongRoad06; 05/21/1404:00 PM.
Me- 29 H - 36 T - 5y M - 2y D - 11 months BD#1 June 2013 BD#2 H files 10/28/13 Retrouvaille Nov 13 BD #3 H Files 2nd time 4/22/14 Fires L 7 days later. No court dates set Supposedly he's moving out?
