3 Months In and Feeling...More Aware

[JennD]

Hi all. Had a few low days. Long weekend in Canada. H was here the whole weekend. Loved/hated it. We did some family stuff - bike riding, cleaning up the yard, cleaning out the garage (spring cleaning, etc.).

He is so much fun with the girls. I was able to hold it together until Sunday morning. H was taking the girls to the playground and I was GAL'ing - kind of - running errands. I was missing our "family" so much that was crying - but quietly and just was I was leaving - trying to be discrete - so i got in the car (alone) and cried a bit in the driveway.

I didn;t think they did but the girls picked up on my sadness and came out the front door to see if I was okay. I quickly wiped my eyes and smiled and waved back to them and told them to go back in.

H mentioned later that evening that our oldest daughter asked him why I was upset when i left. He said he told her that wasn;t sure and that she could ask me later.

I think I'm back to PMA...I'm trying...