Newbie - bf suddenly left after 9 years

[Italian]

Thank you, Adinva. Your words are a real eye-opener. I had never seen it that way, but really... you're right. If I hadn't grown up to believe that that's how it's supposed to be, I would have demanded more.

I wonder if I can make it out of this cycle alone, or if I might be better off seeking therapy for it...