Well, I definitely have a runaway husband. He left without an explanation (irrational and at first looked like a MLC, but not) and I'm sure has several on the string. I'm not sure about finding love for you again. I hope for you and your kids it's possible. My H (which it's not final, but he acts like it is) had a 20 year affair on 1st wife and had mistress for another 7 years, until me and I'm sure was faithful for 3 years or so and then when crazy after his mom died and we married. Always had one waiting while running from another. Is this just a one time thing for your H, or has he been seeing many women you don't know about?