Agree, it's hard to not, but I realize I need to have zero expectations, otherwise I will just disappoint myself. I haven't brought up that conversation again at all, and my W has not responded with with what she said she was going to think about and bring up
I had a great time with my kids on the weekend so far, while W was with the OM, and of course, when she came to pick up the kids this AM, she was sick, tears, and on edge. Looking to pick a fight. I escaped unharmed, but it was a delicate act. Every time she is going or coming , it's like she's looking for anything. Today I didn't greet her as happily as I should have at the door? WTF does she expect, I know she just had OM at her apartment and dropped him off. I was pleasant and not rude, and just kept details to logistics. It can be so frustrating, she just wants it to appear like everything is normal, when it isn't.
See how this week goes I guess, could be interesting. Logistics are about to get more complicated with some possible housing moves. Hopefully the peace is kept here and my kids remain stable.
On to GAL tonight. Forcing myself a bit. Sometimes it's hard, it's a holiday and I miss spending the time with my kids. But I think that it's better in the long run for them to see me as strong and capable. And GAL is important for me. Onwards with the battle.
