Sorry to hear what you're going through. I'm not sure why you constantly feel like you have to apologize for things. You've been apologizing since you've been here. You haven't done much to detach which is why you're feeling the way you do.
If you want to know what you need to do, it's to start living again. You haven't grown beyond the situation so you still feel lost. Get yourself strong again and stop letting everything revolve around your M and the actions of your W. Start doing things for you. Start believing in yourself again.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
