KGirl - Movin' On and Out!

[KGirl]

Trip planning feels like the only thing keeping me going through this move. H and I have yet to go by room by room to decide who gets what. I asked him yesterday about some things on the entryway table, one of which is an hour glass. I said I'd really like to have the hour glass. He said in a joking tone "you mean the 44 minute glass?" 'casue it doesn't run a full hour. I said "I don't really feel like joking about this" and started getting teary-eyed. How am I going to get through deciding what to do with wedding pictures and mementos? I don't feel like he should keep any of it because if he never wanted to get married anyway, why would he want it? I picked out all the decorative things that he said were wastes of money, and now he wants them because he's "used to how they look in the house." I didn't put all my time and creativity into this to have to leave half of it behind. I'm really stuck right now on how UNFAIR THIS ALL IS. I'm leaving, I'm exiting his life, this is what he wants, why can't he just let me be to do it? He doesn't even have to do any work. And if I try to start packing things that seem obvious to me (like my gnome collection!) he starts asking me questions about what I'm doing and how he didn't get to see what I put in that box. He wants to oversee the whole process, but he won't answer my questions about setting a date and time to do it. I can't do it ad-hoc because if he's watching TV or playing a video game he won't hear me when I ask questions. This is harder than I thought it would be. I just want to get on packing things up and not have to drag this out longer than necessary.