Thanks Wonka I really appreciate the reminder. Intellectually, I know that it is not a competition. In fact, I would never trade places with the OW because I would not want to be anything like her, on multiple levels. I know that I need to stop caring what my H thinks about me. I hate that I let his opinion affect me, especially since he has been acting like a horrible human being himself. There are a million people who think the world of me, yet I worry about how he views me.