You as well Mach, didn't mean to leave you out! I have got to stop trying to make sense of the sitch. My logical mind is so trying to make sense of something that defies logic and I need to stop letting that control my thoughts and actions.
After our "talk" the other night, I found myself plotting revenge scenarios in my mind and when I realized what I was thinking it scared me! I SO don't want to become that person. Someone bitter and angry all the time, it's just not me. Maybe a big part of this is that I used to be a happy person. I like to laugh and be with other people and since all this I don't seem to be that person anymore. That's totally on me! I can't let my sitch with my W turn me into someone I'm not. I need to use it to drive me to become a BETTER person, to show my D's how strong people handle the hard parts in life. Not running away but facing the facts and making my own future the way I want it to be!
