Funny how at the beginning of this journey I was begging God to stop this divorce and now I can't wait for it to be done!
Yeah - I never understood how people could have a party to celebrate finalizing the divorce, but after 2 years of the process, I definitely WANTED to celebrate when it was done!
What else can you do for free to help you with your anxiety? Learn to meditate (there must be free resources online)? Attend some Alanon meetings? (Even though your ex isn't an alcoholic, you might find some of the principles helpful. A friend gave me the Alanon book The Courage to Change, and even though my ex doesn't have any addiction issues, I found it quite helpful).
