Now, obviously you don't agree that you're horrible, you're saying it as W's thinking it.
Guess what, she's allowed to think you're horrible. Even for an illogical or nonexistent reason. You cannot control, manage, or decide what she gets to think about you.
Take "she thinks I'm horrible" completely off the table as a factor in any of your actions, thoughts or decisions. Accept that she might, and be ok with yourself by doing what you believe is the right thing to do.
Let go of her opinion of you. It will be what it will be, and ultimately it doesn't matter and will likely change over time.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.