afraid I have waited too long #3

[nit84]

Thanks KGirl!!

According to what you said above I guess I have actually been in LRT for a while.

I am doing all the above honestly, I know I will be ok if and when D comes about.

When I say helpless I guess I mean it the sense that my W even though she has filed for D still goes back and forth between being mad at me but wanting to have my family and then also saying what great guy I am when I don't drink.

I haven't drank in almost a year. It was my choice to do so but now she just says that it was a major part of our problems but still is upset with the changes I have made because I should have changed before she made up her that she didn't love me anymore.

I wish I could feel how "done" she is because maybe then I wouldn't care so much and we could just go our separate ways
and call it a day.