So he texted me just now that he was glad I was having a good time and to spend time talking with our daughter about "us" as she asks him sometimes but won't engage. I said I don't know that there's much to add right now but I'll check. Then he launches into how I should just reassure her we will always put her ( and other kids) first no matter what happens with "us". ( he actually put the word us in parentheses). I said I didn't think it was necessary to bring it up to her after an enjoyable weekend unless she wants to talk about it- and he says ok I trust your judgement. Then he asks if he ruined my weekend by bringing it up and I said no. Which is true- my weekend isn't ruined but I am definitely upset!
Clearly I have not detached enough in the manner I should because I just want to tell him to GTFO of my house and go away and leave me alone and stop dangling me on this f'ing yo yo! He wants to spend time together, wants to ML, calls me every night when traveling but now talks like this. I cannot deal anymore! I hear from so many people and read so many times that a sitch often turns around just as you are about to give up, and I don't want to give up but I'm just so tired of all of this! And I haven't been this emotional in awhile but I am sitting here crying and angry and hurt and over it. I feel bad saying that b/c I know my situation is not nearly as bad as many and has not gone on as long- but I just feel emotionally exhausted!
Me 41 H 40 M 20 T 23 S 19,16, 8 D 13 BD1 dec 2012 not sure going to work BD2 sep 2013 seeking a D Filed oct 2013, D Feb 2015 Life is about daring greatly, about being in the arena- Brene Brown