Just some updates-- I realized today that, now that I am actually sharing child-care duties significantly with H, I have so much more patience and can appreciate the time I am with her so much more. (Before H left, I did bedtime routine pretty much every night, and woke up with D every weekend morning.)
That said, I miss her terribly and I do resent missing out on so much time with her. Yesterday, they spent the day with my in-laws at my nephew's birthday. I'm so so sad to not be part of their family anymore.
I've also been thinking about our home. He broached the idea of me buying him out. At first I was totally for it, but now I'm having second thoughts. 1) I'm not sure I could get a mortgage for this place on my own. 2) The thought of having to sell it on my own feels daunting (managing the relationship with broker, keeping it presentable for showings, and going through with the actual sale all by myself... my H handled most of that (I was very pregnant) when we bought. 3) there are some issues/repairs to do, and it feels kind of unfair that he gets to just walk away with his equity without having to do any of the work that I would have to do to sell it.
I'm getting really angry thinking about that last part. Selling a home takes a lot of work. Why should he get to just up and walk away from it so easily when we entered this commitment and tied our money into this investment together? I need another perspective, please...
