afraid I have waited too long #3

[nit84]

I need a little help with LRT, I am not sure how to implement it.

I suppose the reason is I am not ready to write that letter because I still want to work things out.

Even after we both have retained L's I still hold hope that something will happen to allow her to change course and want to work on things. I realize that it is a slow process but after almost a year of being S I know how to take things very slowly.


Any advice on other things to attempt. The 180's while helping me out, have done little(that I know of) to sway my W.

I can honestly say the things I have done this past year have helped me grow as a person and will go a long way in helping me become a better H. I just cant get it out of my head that I want it to be with my current W not a new one.

I guess the only time that will happen is when I have to sign the D papers whenever that may be.

I am trying to stay hopeful but mostly feeling helpless