SOMEtimes I think DBing would be easier if W and I didn't live together. Certainly would be easier to detach.
Maybe I'm getting a taste of what W felt...apparently for years. Not getting what you want/need and wondering if you can find it elsewhere.
At least I can say this: W has remarked many times now that she is finally getting the relationship she always wanted. So if we run down the clock together and she still wants to leave, I feel fairly confident I did what I could with the time I had left to change things for the better...and I'll know what type of partner I want to be in the future.
It's difficult though... A lot of what I need/want in a relationship was still being given to me right up until the bomb drop. Then it all just went away.
H: 43 W: 37 M: 11 years T: 12 years S: 11 D: 8 ILYBINILWY, "I want to move out" and "I want a divorce": 3/23/14 MC started: 9/22/14 Affair and past infidelity discovered: 9/26/14 Piecing: 10/20/14
