Up, G is right-you can move forward without "living the single life". (LOL at at revolving door to your bedroom )
Pulling the trigger and "ending" it isn't going to make you feel better- the feeling will still be there. To quote others on the board, the only way through this is THROUGH it. You're doing it right: NC/dark/dim to take care of YOU. Eventually your hard days will be fewer and farther between. You can do this!!!
Live your life without him. He's already starting to miss you.
Hang in there!
Me: 39 H: 45 Second marriage for both H left 12/2013 M:4 T:5.5
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