Upwards - Needing support, tough times ahead

[Upwards]

Its sad that they can walk away with no contact after so many years together isn't it, its easier for them that way though as it means they can push their guilt to one side. Although in all honesty I've found I do much better when we've been NC.

I think I need to just leave him to it & live my own life as I already am doing, he needs to do this on his own & I don't want to be in the firing line when he's struggling or things go wrong for him.

I'm torn between living my life as married woman (even though H isnt!) and being faithful or filing for divorce and living my life as a single woman.