Thank you for your input..I really need it! H and I went to the MC today..He talked alot(what I wanted) and reaffirmed how much I have hurt him..the betrayal, the trust etc..and I thought who am I to think he can put this all behind ??Now I think I am in fantasyland and I need to wake up and realize how angry and hurt he is. He said he would keep going to the MC as long as it was about us remaining friends not reconciling.(pretty harsh words for me to hear)He did bring up to MC about remaining intimate and he wanted us to stay close but we ran out of time.. This whole D is about control & power. My H even said he would never allow himself to be vulnerable again to be hurt like this.I told him he could have it all back..I am not fighting him on property and $$.WE live in CA were I could legally get half and he owns quite a bit of rentals & property. It would ruin him if I fought him..after all the pain I have caused him I couldn't do it.
He is still here all the time(spent the night last night)told the counselor he loves me..SO I guess I have to keep my head straight and say take it a day at a time??Help!!
