BF, I hope those fires are not too close to your house! I have been hearing about them on the news, I think.

Well, I finally called 4 landscaping companies about lawn cutting, and mulch delivery/installation. Getting 2 estimates currently. No sooner do I do that than H e-mails, saying he is (finally) coming Monday during the day to cut and fertilize the lawn. 'Bout time. It looks awful. Embarrassing. (I will not see him. I'll be at work.) Sad. This is another thing he was always so particular about - not anymore. Then he proceeds to say he needs to do some work on the outside of our vacation home. Why do I care?

Anyway, feeling more detached today, and feeling pretty ok. My counselor (who has spoken with H separately a few times) feels he might keep procrastinating for a while. I'm really thinking he's pretty much done doing that (it's almost a year) and will soon take some action (like he says). But, then again, over the past 6 or so years (when all this MLC began brewing) he has said 'I'm gonna...' about a zillion times, about a whole bunch of things, and never did any of them. <Sigh> Life goes on, with or without him. I do feel a little relieved, I have to admit, not walking on eggshells anymore, every day. That I can really FEEL now -- the difference.

Well, at least the lawn will be cut next week. I guess that's good, right? Still have to have mulch delivered and installed. I'm not doing 15 yards by myself! Happy weekend, everyone.


Me 53, XH 57
M 20 (+1.5) years, no kids
BD June '13
H moved out July '13
Confirmed long-suspected PA Feb '14
H filed for D Nov. '14
D March '15