If her family knows, does that reflect poorly on her or you? Do you think they are telling her "Good job WAW! Way to cheat on your husband! Congrats!"

Where does that come from Corbean? Whether they agree with her or not, they are not married to you.

The truth is, you haven't forgiven her....yet. That's going to take some serious time. You've been hit by a freight train.

If you truly have forgiven her, you wouldn't be so messed up right now. You WANT to forgive her but you haven't. You can talk to your pastor all you want, but I don't think it's possible for someone to forgive their spouse for infidelity after a conversation and a prayer. It's going to take some time, probably much more than you think it will.

You're racing right now.

My ExW cheated on me. It made me lose faith in the human race. I didnt know if I wanted to live anymore. The scars run deep. Eventually her A ended after we were seperated for a while. Guess who came knockin' with tears in her eyes? By that time I had already moved on with another woman.

I KNOW for a fact, my ExW regrets what she did to this day. She has gone from relationship to relationship to relationship and SHE has been cheated on. Hell, she would call ME for advice. Funny how things work like that.

She still hints with me that she misses us. My feelings died for her many, many years ago.

I would suggest that you see a grief counselor. You need to process this stuff. My first appointment is Monday, I cant wait!