buz 29: NO CONTROL ~ respond vs. reacting.. dates?

[makingmagic]

Annoyed these past few days....annoyed that I am within his arms reach, available when he choses. I do not like this position.

Yesterday, when he realized that his business deal may fall through, he offered to give me his $200G line of credit to put towards a house. I didn't jump at that statement like he probably expected. He probably expected me to say "ok, I will match the 200 & that way we can do what our mediator suggested". As that was my position (even 2 days ago). I didn't ask questions.

He then suggested to go view a friend of his place... its going on the market, private sale. Figured I could save $20-30G privately. I said that I would look at it, but just didn't think it was my style. Also, there is another friends house I could possibly live in (temporarily) until it sells.

I am not impressed with his "if" statements (non committal words, that string me along, give me hope and keep me at arms length).

Yesterday, when it was time to leave work I pretended that I was on the phone, making plans within his earshot, then I pulled out of the driveway in the opposite direction than home.

Yes, I realize that is game playing...but, I did so for myself. Not for his reaction... just to get myself away from his reach. I'm tired of him not appreciating my "there" position. Telling me "not now", the other day made me realize thats not good enough for me.

I am not an option, I AM A PRIZE!!