So the passwords are in on all technology, but there has been significant damage and anger. Interestingly enough, she feels that I did this intentionally so she would feel the same pain I felt when I found out about the A
Had a FT meeting today, that got shifted into "I want to F@&&ing kill Devaste" for what he has done to me". Tad different from the co-parenting scheduling we wore supposed to do. Meeting went late with FT again confirming we are separating and heading towards divorce. I can't stand it when this is said. The lack of hesitation in my W was disheartening to say the least. I said it's not what I want but I will not stand in the way. We need to still wait anyways here for another 7 months.
The OM is still very involved, and there is really no end in sight for me. There is no pressure, no W on the other side, it's almost a pure escape from the M and our kids. Really makes me question if I will have a chance to work on R. My fear is no, my hope is yes. Sure that goes for everyone here though. Just needed to write some of this down, as it is so helpful.
Tomorrow will hopefully be better. I'm frustrated and sad, but I know it's ok to feel that way sometimes in this situation. It's what you do to get out of it that matters
